Today I made the first step toward finding me again. I joined Goodlife. I got my first membership back in 2001 while I was a student, and I canceled it in 2008 when I was pregnant with Mieka. I couldn't justify spending the money when I never ever went. And I thought for sure I'd never have time to go back to the gym once I had TWO kids.
I'm so far from that place where I really loved who I saw in the mirror (inside and out). I miss feeling good about myself, and being happy with ME. I don't like the ME right now - the 40lbs heavier, tired all the time, cranky, unpleasant and unhappy version of myself.
I no longer feel I can use the 'I just had a baby' excuse, especially considering my first baby is 3 years old! I want to feel like me again. It's going to be hard work, I know it is. But I'm hoping the pay off will be worth it.
This is who I lost - the happy, energetic, strong, smiling, beautiful me. I haven't seen her in 5 years and I can't wait to have her back.
4 comments:
great post! i'm sure you'll find "Vicky" soon! :)
Got get her!
You can do it!! We are here supporting you :)
Oooooohhhh. How much was your memebership. I'd really like to start going agin too. Maybe we could go together?
Jen
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